When I was 20 years old I started a journal with all my prayers to God. In a couple of entries I prayed specifically for the husband I wanted. Whoever he was, wherever he was at, I had no idea but I was very specific. Right down to the number of children, names, character traits, and so on. I can look back at those prayers now, the ones I wrote to the Lord when I was 20 years old and use them almost like a check list for my husband, our children, and the life I have now. The Bible tells us:
John 14:12-13 “Truly, truly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go to the Father. 13 “And whatever you ask in My name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
John 15:7 “If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it shall be done for you.
It took 7 years of me messing things up by taking life into my own hands and not trusting God. Oh I believed, I just didn’t fully trust it to be done without my own intervention. I was impatient. Many heartaches later when God did send my blessing I almost missed it. I was cold and calloused, shut off to something sweet. God’s grace worked through a few friends who told me to snap out of it.
The man in front of me was special. And my heart changed back. He was not perfect but neither was I. Just by saying yes Lord, I opened the door to the rest of my life walking in the very path I know without a doubt God wanted to bless me.
Those old tattered, tearfilled pages are the written record of God’s forfilled plan in my life. It shows me He is real, actively working, and totally by my side as long as I seek Him and His will in my life.
If I could speak to the younger me I would say, sit back and wait. Enjoy your family now, go spend time with your mom and dad, and stop chasing rabbits. God has everything worked out in His time and sister it is more than you can even HOPE for. Trust me on this. I have my written record to remind me.
I encourage you to journal your prayers to the Lord and ask without abandon. Pray specifically my love.